Bladder Exam

Well, the bladder exam...weds...it went ......and i'm glad
I was so shook up mentally....i just can't understand....i know its nothing but I asked for sedatives as i was hyper.

they were nice and we all did our job....a nice looking nurse applied numbness meds and she would force an anesthesiac into my thing....that was bad enough.......I had white knuckles from my hands squeezing together.

So even though she was pretty and had a nice figure....I did not think about her at all, even though she was holding and doing something with me.

I know it wasn't any big deal but just made me nervous.

I sang my pain/nervous song ....da da oh oh.....daaaaa daaaa oh my for the dr.  Just grunts and groans.

then when it was almost over relaxed enough to sing OH WHAT A BEAUTIFUL MORNING.

it only took 30 seconds for the exam...5 minutes to prepare.

Then the dr discussed it with us.
no surgery or seeds put it the prostate...as my heart is too weak....so radiation for 5 days in a roll for 6 weeks.

and the worst part....Testosterone feeds the cancer.....so pills to stop me from producing testosterone.....so I will have Hot Flashes....just like women.

Maybe I'll have breasts.....I wonder if I will enjoy them like I enjoy womens breasts...ummmm
what do you think.

also, my skin will get nice and soft and i'll have an excuse to cry while watching movies.
I'll also have the ability to talk about nothing for hours while shopping.

But its ok,,,,,I can handle it.

Have a great weekend and maybe I'll see you next year.....